I almost feel like I don't put in effort because I have nothing to work towards, no goal that makes all this suffering worthwhile.
More and more, I feel so disillusioned about college. What's the point of a degree when you're probably not going to use anything you study now in your job next time? What's the point of an education that does not emphasize on the value of learning but rather on memorization and regurgitation skills? What's the point of doing all this when you're just going to die anyway?
Everyone wants the easy way out. That's why the people who succeed are the people who have a goal and are focused and determined to reach it.
I don't know what I want, I don't know what I'm doing.
Sigh.
